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i hope everyone else is having a great new year's eve, because i surely am not
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#i feel like all this time inactive did a significant damage to my stylistic skills#i've been trying to draw something even just a small sketch to celebrate the new year#and everything comes out awful#at this point its no use no matter how i try#the creativity drain doesn't help either#every idea i have ends up discarded eventually#maybe eventually i'll figure something out but it sucks being so bad at something i remember having so much fun doing#i know i must practice to keep it good but i just wish i still got it#crepe talks#vent-ish#might delete later
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I don’t think we talk enough about how being love bombed can like really fuck you up??? Like yeah is it easy to identify from an outside perspective? Absolutely. But being in it and having someone devote that much time and attention to you (even if it is manipulative in nature) to then having it end abruptly when they’ve gotten what they wanted out of you… 🫠
#mine#text post#it’s so devious and sinister the way people can just do this to people#and every time I come out of it#I just feel so stupid and like of course that’s what was happening#why wouldn’t that be what was happening???#and not only does it feel super shitty to feel like you were being used#and also that like everything they said was just a ploy to get something from you#but like the withdrawal of attention is my least favorite part#because it feels nice to be pursued and flirted with and called pretty#and to have someone ask about your day#etc etc#but then when it disappears#you just feel awful#at least I do#and don’t even get me started on how it becomes so hard to believe people after that#to believe anything anyone says#to see yourself as desirable outside of manipulation and being used#just shitty shitty shitty#ruminating on things I shouldn’t#but was thinking about this tonight#having fallen prey to it so many times#sorry for the rant#I’m done now
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I adore him
#undertale#papyrus#papyrus undertale#been having really awful art block lately#And feeling like absolute shit about everything I draw#Because all of what I can do is just the same thing#I’m trying to get better and study anatomy and poses and art#But when it comes down to it all I can draw are the same basic poses and angles#And I know I won’t get better without practice#But it’s still really disheartening#Comparison is the thief of joy but I can’t stop comparing myself to others and falling short#But at least through it all papyrus is there for me!#…even if he’s one of the people I’ve been struggling to draw the most#But this came out cute!!!#Floof doodles
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slowly realizing more and more that the sm boycott effort is gonna amount to nothing in the end, and this is not the way we should be going about the riize situation.
i loved seunghan when he was in the group, and i am still an ot7 fan. but at a point, i think we need to think of how much of our time and energy we're willing to spend fighting for something that has such a small chance of actually happening. sm is gonna bounce back from any stock lost from the boycott because they are one of the big 3. they have like 4 of the biggest groups in kpop rn: nct, aespa, red velvet, riize. there's just no way either boycotting riize or boycotting all of sm would actually be detrimental enough to get a member who's been terminated from the group back in.
and while i don't agree with the ot6 fans who are being unreasonable, i think some ot7 fans have been just as bad. this fandom is so toxic and rotten, every day it just seems to get worse. and i don't like the narrative that most ot7 fans were spreading about ot6 kfans-- how they were just mad that seunghan was dating pre debut. that isn't why they were mad, they really didn't care about that. it's the fact that he took pictures of him with his possibly/alleged underage girlfriend (it's honestly bad enough with/without her being possible underage, which i don't have confirmation on) at what looks like a hotel and presumably sent it to his friends in a group chat (which was how it got leaked). that's why they wanted him out of the group.
personally, i don't believe that a member should get kicked out of a group or put on hiatus without a proper reason why. and seunghan's hiatus and termination is really messy. but there are valid reasons why kfans weren't too big on him. the problem is there have been many idols kicked out for things they didn't do, and others who have been caught doing really fucked up and nasty things and rightfully kicked out of the group, but it's hard to know which idols are innocent or not when there's no organization. and when we jump on a narrative train and blow something super big out of proportion, the facts and proper investigation of the situation gets lost in the mess of things.
what should have happened was things being properly investigated back in october 2023 before seunghan was ever put on hiatus, and a decision made from there whether to keep him in the group or kick him out based on that.
instead, we have the other 6 members who clearly want seunghan back tired of the state of everything (rightfully so), ot7 and ot6 fans fighting a full blown war every day without logical thinking, and misinformation being spread left and right. there's no organization, there's no firm confirmation on anything, all of this is just such a big mess.
now let me be clear IF it's true that there was anything suspicious going on between seunghan and his girlfriend, then i would obviously no longer support him. as it is, i'm not going to stop supporting him until there's firm evidence. i'm tired of kpop stans making rash decisions based on half truths instead of just being patient and waiting for the facts to come out. staying neutral during unclear situations is a valid stance to take. please let's all stop jumping to conclusions from both sides.
#zanna thinks ❀˖°#honestly everything in this situation is so messy it's hard to get any timeline or facts straight#but god idek what the boycott is gonna do at this point#like originally i was all for the boycott too#boycotts have been proven to work in the past#but only because they were organized#like the loona boycott#this boycott isn't organized and there isn't a super good reason for it either...#it's not effective enough to make a difference#sm is just too big#boycotting other sm groups really isn't gonna help either#i think we can all agree that kpop companies are horrible and we hate all of them#we don't want to support the awful companies#but there's also really no way to still support a group without also supporting the company#so in the end it's just messy#anyway i HOPE this all makes sense and i don't sound like a crazy ot6 or something 💀💀#i'm still ot7#but i also don't think idols are incapable of doing anything wrong#and there is a chance that seunghan did do something deserving of being kicked out#there's a chance any idol has done something deserving of that#but until there's evidence i'm not inclined to stop supporting prematurely#us as fans never know what's happening behind the scenes until actual reputable statements come out
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I will never~ be the same~ after watching Mignon~ that shit was beautiful~
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#HYPERVENTILATE WALKED SO MIGNON COULD RUN#what kind of drugs is that korean animation company on bc it is so STUNNING#everything they've come out with!! i! am! in! awe!#the scene where mignon became a vampire was so... i don't even fuckin know#and that sex scene was mind blowing oh my GOD#mignon with his dark hair 100/10#idk if they're immortal vampires??? but if they are they better stay together forever ;-;#✦ jaid watches stuff.#mignon
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hey there kids want to read the truest description of X-Men ever given
THE IDEOLOGICAL LATCH-KEY CHILDREN OF CHARLES AND ERIK'S CATASTROPHIC DIVORCE I'M FUCKING DYING
#X-Men#Anthony Oliveira#I just needed to share this quote like#truer fucking words have NEVER BEEN SPOKEN#like how in House of X Charles gets Emma to come have a meeting#and she's like “okay what's this about”#and then Erik comes out of the shadows and she literally says#“Ah so it's the two of you TOGETHER.”#“this is either going to be incredibly heroic or terrifyingly reckless.”#like everyone Knows they are the founding duo#they aren't the oldest or the most powerful mutants#but EVERYTHING somehow always comes back to them#and so if both of them are involved in something it's like “aw crap duck and cover”#“Erik and Charles are on the up phase of the rollercoaster”#that whole sequence in Nation X#“the world walked around us. this thing of ours isn't ours anymore."#“you're wrong. it's always us. it always comes back to us.”#quoth Cyclops: “Charles and Erik can be a little intense.”
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i love the bingge extra because it's like
the horror of realizing you're the dark universe version of yourself. the injustice of seeing this other version of yourself be happy and loved, seeing him be treated with such gentle tenderness from a person who only ever treated you with cruelty
bad sex.
#svsss#julianno#the little glimpses into bingge's perspective when he's watching them are so rough!!#the sqq he knew was cruel and cold and abused him#and so he got his revenge and became powerful and should have everything he wanted#and then he goes into this other universe#and he sees himself being fussed over by an sqq that is gentle and kind and worries about his wellbeing#an sqq that drains himself of his spiritual energy just to tend his wounds#an sqq that brushes his hair and answers with an indulgent hm? whenever he calls out to him#and how unfair is that? he has everything#but this other version of him is loved#and maybe that's all he wanted this whole time#augh.#and then binghe coming back from pidw's universe and saying he looked everywhere but couldn't find shizun#he had so many people at his side but he didn't have the person who mattered most#GOD. anyway. I have so many thoughts on this extra and I haven't even gotten into the bad sex!#i love how sqq is like FUCK HE'S HUGE. NO WAY I'M TAKING THAT.#and binghe is like maybe shizun should top 🥺 <- definitely something he has fantasized for a long time#and sqq is like wait no what if i hurt him i wouldn't be able to bear it. so he ends up bottoming anyway#also the fact that he's so tired by the end lskdjflksd old man.#he claims it was awful and yet he came twice. you are a liar ❤#reading these books after reading mdzs is very funny#going from wangxian fucking like rabbits and having very enthusiastic kinky sex#to binghe crying in the middle of sex and sqq being like If He Puts That Thing In Me I Think I'll Die.
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#work situation:#so they did hear me out but as I suspected the decision was actually already made#which hurts because I would rather have spent the weekend coming to terms with it rather than building a case and thinking I had a fighting#chance#it was awful I totally cried on zoom and everything#however I did get a chance to bring up my concerns and they did say they’ll reevaluate after 6 months. so that’s better at least#I think I can stick it out in the new dept for six months okay.#I am trying not to be angry and hurt now. I want to believe there’s a future for me bc everyone other than my immediate boss has been great#and even she hasn’t been bad#so yeah. please pray now that I can just get through the next two weeks now#I have tech week and shows for the play I’m in and am asst. stage managing and that all starts tonight#and I also have to finish a hard story assignment and start transitioning to the new dept in that time#just. everything happens so much and I need to be able to be a rock for people in the play#thank you all SO much for your prayers and kindness#I love y’all
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I DIDNT FORGET WHOSE SPECIAL DAY IT IS THO HAPPY BIRTHDAY SASARA 🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡
#this is vee speaking#GET IN THE CLOWN CAR LOSERS WE CELEBRATING SASARAS DAY KING CLOWN HIMSELF#HAPPY BIRTHDAY SASARA!!!!!!! YOUVE COME SO FAR!!!!!!!#FACING TROUBLE HEAD ON AND STILL FINDING IT IN YOU TO SMILE IN THE FACE OF ADVERSITY!!!!!!!#SEEING THAT YOU NEED TO BE ABLE TO SMILE WHEN ADVERSITY COMES YOUR WAY!!!!!!!!!#REALISING THAT BONDS ARE SOMETIMES SOMETHING YOU NEED TO FIGHT FOR INSTEAD OF LETTING IT FETTER OUT AS YOU WATCHED YOUR PARENTS DO#LIKE HE OVERCAME HIS TRAUMA WHILE COMING TO THE CONCLUSION LAUGHTER IS STILL THE ANSWER DESPITE EVERYTHING IS THAT NOT WHATS UP???????#IS THAT GREAT WAY TO GO SASARA SAN 🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡#HERES TO BRINGING LAUGHTER TO THE WORLD!!!!!! REACHING THE TOP AND WITH YOUR COMBO YALL THE TRIO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#HOPE CELEBRATING AT ROSHOS HOUSE WAS FUN LMAO AND I HOPE THE ALCOHOL REI GIFTED WAS TASTY#AND YALL GOT FADED LIKE SHIT I HOPE THE HANGOVERS AWFUL THATS HOW WASTED YALL GOT LMAO#HAPPY BIRTHDAY AGAIN 🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡#c: sasara
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my aunt's being a cunt so now my mum's sobbing in the living room everything is so awesome all of the time
#you ever just have family members who are not only rich as fuck they're also extremely healthy#and entirely unable to fathom that not everyoone else is#because the weather is awful my granddad probably can't get to his friends he celebrates new years with every year#so my aunt messaged my mum telling her to invite him over and my mum did cause like yeah ofc#but then she was like damn i don't think we have enough food#cause my dad (good dad/mum's ex bf/not my actual dad/long story) is also coming#so she very casually just mentioned that and my aunt GOES OFFFF at her like ''he's just as much your dad as mine''#bitch! not our problem that your favourite thing in the world is hosting dinners!#my mum's been on sick leave for a YEAR#and now she has to whip up a wholeass new years celebration?#out of nowhere? because you're going to a massive new years party?#plus my dad has bad anxiety so if my granddad's coming he might not even want to come#like they're both invited and it'll probably be fine but for fucks sake#anyway so now she's sobbing. and everything is really awesome.
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hi hi xixi !!!! its been a while since ive visited your inbox, how are you lately ? :33 i hope the winter (and argenti !!!!) has been treating you well !!!!!
btw !!! my buggest thank you to grey because she singlehandedly helped me pick my next victim >:3
(p.s idk if the picrew skin color is accurate to yours or not since ive seen your irl pic so i hope you dont mind if i darkened it-- DO TELL ME IF ITS WRONG AND ILL CHANGE IT AJDJSJS)
nick ... i ... nick oh my gosh .... (՞⸝⸝o̴̶̷̥᷅ ⌑ o̴̶̷̥᷅⸝⸝՞) ..... !2!/$/$/&&\<\€£\ someone pinch me bcs . . is this real ? like i still haven't processed this at all ! ? ! ? m' dearest nick ? ? ? gifting me ? ? ? this absolutely endearing art of me and my love ??? through ? ? ? his ? ? ? precious ? ? ? eyes ? ? ? ? ? ? wow. just casually blessing me with this ? ! ! what did i do to deserve ? what world did i save in my past life ? ? ? ?
you don't know how this is literally just revived me. like i came into my inbox drained and tired ? now i'm filled with nothing but pure happiness ⸝⸝⸝ᵒ̴̶̷̥́ ᵕ ก ̀⸝⸝⸝ you made us so incredibly lovely ! ! ( SOBS ) you nailed our dynamic so perfectly ! ! ( WAILS ) him kissing my hand ? ! ( STUFFS FACE WITH A PILLOW ) i have no words but utter appreciation & love for you ! ! ! ( FALLS ONTO KNEES AND BAWLS MY FACE OFF ! ) it's such a pleasure whenever you visit my inbox :( it's always wide open for you ! i just hope that winter has been treating you so extremely well ! ! ! I LOVE YOU SM ! !
#𐚁ྀ ₊ ࣪ ㅤ 𝓪𝓻𝓰𝓮𝓷𝔁𝓲 ྀི#hope you don't mind me posting this one ! (∩´͈ ᴖ `͈∩ ྀི) snifls#EVERYTHING ABT TIS IS PERFECT NICK ! i'm just crying and falling onto m' knees because what da heck ! you did this for me x__x of all ppl ?!#you're just a absolute sweetheart nick :c i hope you know that and i hope you never ever EVER doubt that !#taking time out your day and not only making darling gifts for me but all of your dear mutuals 🥹 i'm just at awe at how generous you are#how lucky am i to meet you ?! thank you for coming into my life ?!:'d#i'm getting a little choked up GEJSK i'm just incredibly thankful. did i say thank you? thank you so much . thank you thank you thank you !#thank you for being my friend ! thank you for this precious gift ! thank you for being so kind to me ! !#excuse me as i cry about argenti for these last few tags . .#BUT WAAHAHSJKSAYAHAHAHAHHHH!!/!/!!-!-!/'snnnnnnnsn#HIS SPARKLES HIS SWEET SMILE AS HE KISSES UPON HIS HAND HIS CALM NATURE UNFAZED MY REACTIONSBN!:!#MY LOVE MY HEART MY ROSE MY EVRYTHIINGGGGG I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU !#nick actually :( see i have tis small complex on how i don't feel beautiful enough or good enough for being by his side but :(#seeing us here :( together in your art style :( it just silences my worries completely. i really thank you for gifting me this#AAASGHSJD LET ME GO MAKE TIS MY PERSONALITY BYEHEHEHEHEHE#₊⁺ 𓂃💫 ◞❤︎🌹#💭 ︵ᡣ𐭩
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gah now i'm getting On My Shit about the discworld again and like i've said what i want to say about the witches and the watch but there's also small gods like i will never be over small gods i finished it and i was like... has this... has this healed some of my religious trauma?
if you've never read it, the plot is thus: on the disc, gods get their power from belief. therefore, the more believers a god has, the more powerful they are. and so, there is this god -- om -- who has risen in power, who has a country devoted to His worship, which hunts down and slaughters heretics and infidels, to whom people pray multiple times a day and make pilgrimages to His holy city, which has a huge citadel and huge structure of a complex religion devoted to his worship. and, on a whim, He comes down one day to see how things are going.
and discovers that he has no power.
that, in this country of millions who profess to worship Him with all their hearts, there is only one person left who actually believes in Him.
and there's a lot of meat there, and a lot more plot to delve into, but the core theme ends up boiling down to this:
can you forgive your god for how they failed you?
and do they deserve that forgiveness? how can they earn that forgiveness?
because ultimately, the forgiveness that the messianic archetype is embodying is not that of the god's grace, but of the people's -- to forgive their god his absence. to give their god another chance to be their god.
and whether or not you, in the end, can forgive, it gives you the language to realize that this is what you were asking for with your last prayers. whether or not you can ever go back, whether or not there have been other reasons since that have convinced you further, it gives you the language to accept that your god failed you. and it is not your fault.
this book speaks loudest, perhaps, to those of us who left our church with grief, not with anger. with hurt betrayal, not with the fires of defiance.
it didn't change my lack of religious belief, but it helped me conceptualize my feelings about the church, the things that went deeper than intellectual arguments. about that sense of betrayal, that hurt, that twisted-up knot within me that it had built, and it gave me the mirror within which i could see that i had been failed by my beliefs. it wasn't that i hadn't believed enough, it was that my belief had been betrayed by the absence of an answer.
there have been other reasons since then that have cemented my atheism, but small gods made me stop hating the church i used to love, because it made me recognize why i hated it so much and said "you're not wrong, it didn't have to be this way. you were betrayed and you were failed and you can let it go, now."
#discworld#gnu terry pratchett#small gods#religious trauma#i won't pretend it fixed everything because it's not that simple#but it gave me the language to understand the core of my emotions coming out of that awful place#and that was a seismic shift#i was steadily veering towards the Angry Atheist archetype but it unraveled that anger within me#i'm no less an atheist and this book never tried to change that - sir terry was a secular humanist and this is very much not one of those#preachy christian books like it is *aggressively* not one of those preachy christian books#it's about religious trauma and working through it and dealing with your complicated feelings about your religion#and having that mirror to recognize that what i was feeling *was* trauma. it *was* betrayal. and i wasn't wrong to feel it.#shifted something deep within me
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To this day I don't understand how Ghostbusters Frozen Empire had the budget to hire all of these absolutely incredible actors, a surprisingly excellent cinematographer, a SFX team that's second to none, AND a phenomenal composer (HE WROTE THE 2005 PRIDE AND PREJUDICE SOUNDTRACK FOR FUCK'S SAKE)- and yet STILL couldn't manage to hire even semi-decent writers (this also applies to Ghostbusters Afterlife actually)
(whoever came up with the Phoebe/Melody plot goated tho)
#it's time for my actual dislike for these films purely from a critical standpoint to come out again lmao#I might write an essay about why frozen empire ended up being a perfect mess#kind of terrible but with characters so good and so well played I obsessed over them for months lmao#god I love these characters so much. and Checkmatch plot ilysm#but I genuinely dislike these two films in about 80% of aspects otherwise lmao#again maybe I should write an essay on this#why the script was fucking shite but the film still sort of slayed in a weird sort of way#I'm sorry to bring negativity here but I feel like a bit of an imposter sometimes in this fandom as someone who actually didn't like-#-the films 😭#not that I didn't enjoy them to a degree they're just ...#not great objectively#like I said terrible terrible awful script and these characters deserved so much better#and also from a franchise perspective...#okay I'll shut up now anyhow#I was thinking about this today anyways#HOW could they not hire good writers 😭#such good everything else....#cass thinks ab stuff#ghostbusters#ghostbusters frozen empire#ghostbusters afterlife
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I seriously can't stop thinking about it.
#The layers upon layers man#Spoilers from now on sorry#The fact that starts and ends with the killing of two queer guys by the law (thank you Tumblr user @thomaskong I'm kms)#The fact that there were no villains nor heroes#Is Mo a victim? Is it Thongkam? Is it Saeng? Is it Sek? Is all of them?#Does being a victim of awful systems erases the guilt of their individual actions? At what point does their anger stop being justified?#It's greed what drives the characters? It's love? It's hate? It's ego? It's the hope for a better future and a desire to reclaim what one's#Owned. But what is that? Things born out of lies lay death at the end. No one keeps the house. No one keeps the farm#Jingna wish was fulfilled. They stopped fighting. Jingna wish was impossible.#If at any point they would've simply stopped and offered each other compassion none of this would've happened.#But even when they do the laws and systems that hold them down are there#An old disabled woman who's murder no one will investigate because she's not rich. A poor woman that has almost no options left because#She didn't complete school (no papers no formal education no way to gain money beyond what she was left with). A gay guy who lost everything#He put his work into. Everything was taken out of his hands again and again because he had no legal power over any of it#The scene where he's so desperate he screams at the doctor they just had sex willing to show everyone just to let him keep Sek alive#The scene at the end whefe both lost their minds and any reason leaves them. Hate taking over. An innocent guy dead#He was going to rape her and she was going to kill him. And they stopped but there was never a coming back from any of that#What's your relationship with the family? He was their everything. He meant nothing to them. Nothing at all#Sek is. So complex yet so simple. We only get to know him through the small moments our protagonists remember#Yet he's the cataclysm and the conclusion. Everything goes back to him and yet he had to die for the story to start#The visuals. The metaphors. How a fruit can have so much value. Something so small yet so meaningful. Full of Thorns#Hiding the sweetness and humanity. I'm going to kill myself#Properly watching#Properly watching The Paradise of Thorns with Benka#the paradise of thorns#Paradise of Thorns#I have to Make A Post
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well. did you fucking miss me.
#random thoughts#apologies for sounding in such a sour mood. life is fucked as of late.#scheduled post. i made this on 10.08.2024.#everything has just gone to shit. so far i've been eating less than ever. feels like my stomach is eating itself augh (':#(technically the so-called relapse started on 24.12.2023. but we are not unpacking that today or ever.)#and i am filled with this desperate urge to cut myself. really really deep. not sure how to cope with it#i also?? hate how i look??#and yet i spend all my time?? in this dark dark room?? taking pictures of my face?????#i'm not killing myself off just yet don't worry. i considered it but it won't be happening any time soon.#i originally planned on disappearing for twelve days. partly to make my friends feel bad because i'm awful#which. obviously didn't work. as i don't think anyone noticed or cared particularly.#but mostly because i can't fucking handle it. it being everything. my future feels so uncertain#i am barely alive. i love all the people in my life. but they're too far away physically and emotionally.#but yeah. back finally. although ciel disappears for a lot longer than me and if you know hym my absence would be a small stint.#ciel if you're here when i post this i love you please come back. ):#this place is so scary to come back to. i'm not sure why. i'm just. scared.#i'm not even sure if i want to return really. i'm having second thoughts now. i haven't gotten worse enough#and i can't say what that means. because in theory there's nothing wrong with me that's been speculated upon. so.#i don't think anyone would care if i disappeared for longer than this.#but being away is torture. and then again being here also sort of is. it's scary#fuck.#i can't get out of bed without feeling like shit. i don't know if i can come back. i'm so sick of everything.#if you're seeing this i'm so sorry.#I NEED TO CUT MYSELF I NEED TO CUT MYSELF NOW. I NEED TO. I MADE SO MANY PROMISES BUT I NEED TO DO IT NOW#I'VE GOT THE SCISSORS I NEED TO DO IT#I NEED TO DO IT RIGHT THE FUCK NOW#(<- tags canceled for now)
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‼️The Cruel Prince spoilers‼️
I’m not the only one who never forgave Taryn for what she did to Jude right? Like with Valerian and Locke, yeah I despised them, but it’s not like I truly expected them to be better. But taryn was jude’s family. Her twin. And it makes it worse that Jude was always so savagely loyal to Taryn when Taryn wouldn’t do the same for her. Like Jude straight up shoved Cardan into a tree without thinking because he made her sister cry. Whereas Taryn not only didn’t help Jude, was the reason she was suffering and sincerely didn’t see how she was being awful??? I was honestly hoping when they duelled that Jude would rightfully beat the shit out of taryn because of all the ways she’d let Jude down. It still makes me mad to think about. Jude just deserved better. Ugh.
#taryn duarte hate club#SPOILERS LOOK AWAY#i wanted to marry cardan on the lone basis of him making taryn cry#everything he said was right#like she comes around and i was so glad that she and vivi were there for jude#(although tbh it would’ve been crazy if they hadn’t given jude was bleeding out from an awful wound but i digress)#but taryn fucked up hell of a lot and jude deserved a MASSIVE apology.#and despite it jude was always so loyal and good to her#love vivi#but fuck taryn#yeah forgiveness is good and all but i wish taryn had felt more remorse than she did#ugh!#anyways stan jude#the cruel prince#the cruel prince spoilers#the wicked king#the wicked king spoilers#tfota SPOILERS
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